Good-bye

So... I've finally deleted his number.

Woah.

Waiting

Waiting and waiting..and waiting..

still no responses from him.

How funny that this has now became one of my daily routines.

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He might be not interested. 

Introduction - Why I am here/ How I met A

So here I am, writing a blog about dating an I-banker, in which I will refer him as 'A' here.

Honestly, this is an inspiration after I binged reading the blog from 'I-banker girlfriend', her blog inspires me a lot, I have mixed feeling towards her relationship with H did not work out in the end, I think it's the experience that counts. (Plus, her blog related to my experience a lot, I finally feel like I am not alone lol)

I do believe people come into our lives for a reason, whether it is just for experiences or even lessons. Especially this 'causal relationship' I have with A is so different to the ones that I have ever experienced, so thought this is a good platform to write down my thoughts, memories, or even a reminder for some important lessons that I will learn during this journey here.

There's one major weakness of mine - whenever I am in love with someone, I tend to not think as logical as I normally am. Who knows, maybe some later years if thing between me and A did not work out, then I could look this blog back and just see it as a joke.

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So I will start with some background back in 2016.

2016 was definitely an year that was special (very different) for me, I came out of a long-term (kinda-long-distance) relationship of 4 years. When I was with him, I did not realise/ care much about what is going on around us. So after we broke up, it was actually my first time stepping into the real world - despite the fact that I am living in London, a city where is so lively and packed with people, because of my ldr relationship, I did not interact much with other people, the only people I ever talked to are either my ex, my flatmates and people at work. So after we broke up, I felt extremely lonely and completely in a mental breakdown mode. I soon realised that things need to change and I started to go out with my girlfriends almost every Saturday and just to expand my social circles - and this is when I noticed that people, lives, in particularly relationships can be so complicated, and how little I know about this world.

A side story before I met 'A', I met another guy (funny enough his name is A as well) not long afterI broke up with my ex, who had make a huge impact on me. I met him during my 'rebound' period, and we just got on completely well, so that was why I was so attached to him by that time. However, some shit happened, and every thing turned completely wrong in the end. So after that whole 'drama', I learnt that the 'world' is actually not as pure as what I expected and I had to be careful when it comes to love, relationship and guys. I basically just told myself to take a break from the whole falling in love, looking for guys thing. But anyways....

Until a Saturday in December, just a week before Christmas, me and my girlfriends went out (our usual activities on Saturday nights), it was kind of boring because it was not busy at all, guess most of the people had already gone home preparing for Christmas. Especially it didn't help much when my girlfriend got hit on by some guys, I was kind of left out and was just wandering around the club. When I was making my way back to my table, there was a guy walked up to me, and whispered into my ears "Hey, just wondering if you would do me a massive favour, would you just simply say hi to my friend (point to a guy next to him), I think he would appreciate it a lot, and I will thank you for making my friend happy". When I looked at the guy he pointed at, he looks confused/worried (of what his friend was talking to me about), and at the same time he was kinda shaking his head to show that 'Don't listen to him'

There were a few thoughts on my head at that instances, Either:-

1) His friend is trying to set him up with someone for the night, and it just happened that I was there for convenience purpose
2) It's a prank
3) He might be interested but too shy to come up to me so his friend helped

Of course the most 'romantic/ ideal' would be reason 3), which I highly doubt it was, plus after the whole 'drama' thing I had in that year, it destroyed my trust on guys - so the logically side of me went for reason 1).

If something like this happened, I would still say hi just being polite and then go, especially when I had a quick glance on the guy's face that I was so certain he was not my type. I think mainly because I was feeling left out by my friend, plus I thought it was just a hi, which wouldn't hurt either side of us. So after that guy whispered to me, he left me with his friend:- (our convos are roughly like below)

Me: "Hi"
Him: "Hi..I'm so sorry, I don't know what my friend has told you.."
Me: "No nothing much, just wanted to say hi to you"
Him "So what's your name?"
Me: "H. and you?"
Him: "A"

Yup. That's A. Honestly because of the first A I've met, every time when I hear this name, it would instantly caught my attention. After that it's some conversations getting to know roughly about each other. There were few things that were in common. We danced and joked around. Honestly, I barely meet up with guys that I met at bar again because normally you were with them just for 'that night' if you get what I mean. I was not entirely attracted to him, all I knew was I had a really good time, and he was quite fun to hang out with.

He asked for my numbers, and I still remembered after I gave him my number, the very first message he texted me was,

"Hey this is A. The creepy guy who is standing next to you right now"

and that's how I saved his name as 'Creepy Guy' on my phone, I showed him after and we laughed over it.

So this is how we met.